London Film and Comic Con

I spent this past weekend staying in London for the convention. I figured that I could just be myself not being around anyone that I know, and it was wonderful! It was so liberating to just be myself. I now know that I pass publicly, which allowed me to use the gents and be introduced to people as Steve, no make believe, no pretense.

I was referred to as “sir” twice, called a gentleman, and a lovely woman told her kids that if they didnt sit still the man – me – would tell them off!

I felt so good being myself that coming home is all the more upsetting, having to put the mask on again and be someone else. Hopefully it wont be long and I can be open, throw away the mask for good.

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Packer Day 2

After 2 days of constantly wearing Mr Right, I can say for certain it is amazing!

It stays in position perfectly, and warms to my body temperature quickly.

It was definitely the right choice to spend a bit more for this level of quality.

On a different note, I watched “Boys Dont Cry” again today, and feel that I need to say something about the importance of Brandon Teena’s life for all of us trans guys. Because of his struggle and brutal murder, there is so much more awareness that MtF is not the only form of transgenderism, and because of him the streets are a little safer for us all. Thanks.to a combination of this awareness and the ubiquitousness of the internet, it is possible for all us trans guys to purchase specialist packers rather than packing with socks. We are at best accepted and at worst tolerated in todays society, and Brandon’s story has the ability to move the masses to tears.

Thank you Mr Teena. RIP Sir.

I have spent much of today reflecting on my life and the many advantages I have. Had I been born into a previous century I wouldnt have the freedom to just be myself but would have no choice to play act my whole life. I am sure that some “women” would have been transmen, and yet have to fit in with society, feeling wrong and never knowing why.

I’m going to make a serious effort not to ever complain again.

Update

My class are amazing!!! So supportive, i couldnt have wished for better. Jason and Martin said they knew there was something without being sure what.

Dean came round and said that binding hides my chest really well. Apparently his moobs are bigger than mine so yet again I’m on a high 🙂

The best day Ive had so far on this journey!!

College

I am going to college as me today. New jacket, new t shirt, new binder, new jeans, new boxers, new socks and new shoes. I am so excited. If anyone works out who I am great but I am toying with the idea of telling my class.

I dont have any of the other students in my personal life so cant lose anything if they dont want to know. We’ll see how it goes and i’ll add an update later 🙂

Awesome!!!

My binder arrived and I put it on. I feel fantastic. Ok so its not 100% but with a dd cup it was never going to be perfect. It just feels so much better to not be so visible. Under my clothes its really not obvious, with a haircut I feel that I could pass.

I feel on top of the world. Going to ask Dean to come over to get another persons opinion but I feel soooo happy 🙂